On songwriting
It feels nice to pick up the guitar to play. I have to try really hard not to think “Is this the lifestyle I want? Do I want to have this as my career?” which is insane. Like, most people would be pretty happy to just sing a song for themselves, maybe at a few local nights. Why do I have to either do it as 100% my entire life aspiration or not at all?
Perfectionism bites. But I hate the thought that if I did something, I wouldn’t be the best at it. And that’s impossible to measure anyway (it’s so subjective!) so it’s a crazy thing to start with, let alone that sense: it makes none.
Most people just join a band or play on their own to express themselves, try something different or to just have a bit of fun. Why do I feel this insane pressure? It’s just from myself! I see people play live all the time, people who wrote songs they are performing that very day, or who laugh and sing and don’t care if they screw up.
I really wish I was like that.
I say, chillax, let what happens happen, go for it, don’t pressure yourself too much about it. I like to think of it as having your eggs in many baskets - music is an outlet, and you’ll always have things to outlet, yes?
I am the same way, I have gone through periods of writers block that have lasted up to a year. Just keep playing and let things happen as they happen.
2 years ago